Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I caved.

http://nataliefisher.tumblr.com/

There ya go.

I won't delete this blog, I'll just stop using it. I learned not to delete things like this the hard way.

To my two followers (haha, I'm such a sad blogger),

Rhianna, I love you dearly. Your blog has always been super cute. Now that we're both in the tumblr world I look forward to reading yours on a regular basis. Also, come see me soon, ok? (I'll be in town this weekend!! Lunch?)
Love love.

Organic Meatbag aka Billy aka Best Blogger Ever,
You... are awesome. Thanks for reading my drivel and saying nice and funny things. I hope you'll find the time to visit my new blog once in a while...or my other two wordpress blogs. God, I need to stop with the blogs...
Anyway, thanks for being kick ass and, uh...keep kicking ass.
Thanks!

To anyone else reading this: Who are you?! No, seriously.

Alright, I'm out!

And that's what she said.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Hello friendly-friends,

I feel like a big ol' copycat, but I think I might be leaving blogger in favor of a tumblr. I know, I know...RF did this already buuuut....I really think I might too.
And I'll admit...it's mostly the pretty factor. They're sooo pretty. And I'm a graphics person, so it's hard to say no.

I still haven't made a decision, so don't fret just yet.
I promise to keep you posted, and I hope that if I do move, you'll follow me!

Take care,
Natalie

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Late night rage.

Some days I think about deleting this blog. But if I did, I wouldn't have a safe place to say things like this:


I could squash your little head with two fingers. And I'm not even that strong.
You are small.
Weak.
Fake.
And not even worth the trouble of squashing.
I wash my hands of your inane bullshit.




Ahhh, that feels much better.

Goodnight!

Friday, July 31, 2009

The Quad.

Ah, the Quad.

Many fond college memories center around this den of faux photosynthesis (True Green is actually just green paint, ya know.)

The columns, the walkways, the triangle bench and the Exploding Cube are all key players in past experiences. I’ve enjoyed many a free period lounging in the quad’s various locales. Only when the sun is out, of course. That’s when other people are actually in the quad. If you’re seen sitting on a bench when it’s overcast and slightly chilly you’re immediately pegged as a loner…or someone who couldn’t find a seat in the cafĂ© or couch area.

Living on campus this summer has given me a rare chance to see campus without having the worry of getting to my next class or deftly trying to avoid eye contact with a passerby. Campus looks…well it looks like any other day during the school year when students are simply hiding indoors. But I can feel the calm that comes with having no papers to write, no terrible “food” to endure and no parties to think about going to (I’m the only one who ever just thinks about going to a party. I assume other people actually go).

I’ve spent a lot of time in the quad these last few weeks of summer vacation. Just walking around and soaking in the very collegiate feel it has. I did the unthinkable and walked in the grass. “Gasp!” you say, “no one but the hippies and art kids walk on the grass in the quad!” Ah, so soon you forget, anonymous reader, that I am half art student. But walking in the grass also gives one the chance to actually be in the sun, which is quite good for you.

I still haven’t gotten tan.

Oh well.

When I leave Bellarmine (to supposedly never or rarely return) I will miss the quad. It’s lush grass and remaining trees. The Exploding Cube (which I regret not covering in tin foil or silk flowers). How well it hosts impromptu Frisbee games, a lunch outside and procrastination between classes. But like I said…only when it’s sunny.

Friday, June 19, 2009

ABBA can rhyme "sensible" and "incomprehensible" and English isn't their first language.

Check out that fucking title. Yes, I'm listening to ABBA. I'm also marveling at their command of the English language even though it is their SECOND language. I hope to be that successful one day.

On another random note, I find it hilarious when news anchors get mad at the weather person, as if it's their fault for the intense heat and humidity. What douches.

Speaking of humidity, did anyone else in the Louisville area feel like they were swimming outside today? I got into my car and felt like I was sucking in water. It doesn't help that my car is black. Yuuuuck.

That's all I've got for tonight. Conan is on, soooo....I've gotta go. I have big plans that include sitting in my bed with some Oreos watching TV.

And that's what she said,
Natalie

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Always Shadowboxing

I'm just going to pretend like it's only been a few days since my last post so I don't feel like a negligent blogger.

So, new things:
1) I'm back in Louisville, and I love it. It gets kind of lonely since I only know a few people living here for the summer and it's not like we can hang out EVERY day. I'm not that fun. But it's all good. My dear friend Rhianna will be visiting at the end of this month, and my sister will be staying with me all next week.

2) I'm in my new internship at Bellarmine. I'm a design intern in the Marketing and PR Department and I LOOOOOVVVEEEE it. I get to work on real projects all by my lonesome and I work with some pretty cool people. You know you're making friends at work when you're following your co-workers on Twitter.

3) I'm looking for a second job, cause I need more problems (cause...more money, more problems...get it? Maybe it's a stretch).

So, there's this other kid that's an intern in my office. I've been working here for about a month and only saw him yesterday. He's in here again today...and I'd rather he not be. He plays rap music and chews loudly. Oh, and he burps. Blaaaah. Gross.

I think that about updates you. There isn't much else to tell, I suppose.

My fingers don't want to type anymore.

And that's what she said,
Natalie

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Seriously, Richmond.

I'm going on strike.

There's no sign of the sun coming out.

Therefore no chance for me to wear shorts.

I've stopped shaving my legs.



When the sun comes back, I'll start shaving again.

That is my only condition.

And that's what she said,
Natalie

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

The insufferable bitch inside me wants you to die.

I'm really bad about holding grudges. Like...really bad.
Sometimes when I think about someone I really dislike, I imagine these highly choreographed scenes in which I beat the living shit out of them. They can never touch me, of course.
My imagination is a bad ass.
The real me, however, seethes in anger and malice and will one day shrivel up into a pile of nothing.
I have a daily ritual where I take a moment and shove all bad people out of my mind. It works most of the time and I'm left feeling fresh and happy.

I like to think that I'm a rather pleasant person to be around most of the time, especially if I really like you and you really like me. I like to make jokes and be silly as much as possible.

I would like to be more childlike.

In other, more positive news:
I love art. And art loves me back, apparently.
I put my video in the student art show and I won "Best New Media" for it. And got $100!
It's a big deal.
I cried a little in the gallery.

In other, slightly negative news:
Finals week.....uuuugggghhhhhhhhh.
Yeah.
I have three today. I've taken two already, and my last one is a presentation.
I had to make a website, and I'm really proud of it. Soo...A+?!

I need to get back to work.

And that's what she said,

Natalie

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Caffiene Machine

Me: So, I gave up soda.
Mom: For Lent? It's a little late for that.
Me: No...for good.
Family: Hahahahahaha.

I really have, though.
I've been in a human biology class all year, and learning how your body works (and looks on the inside) really makes you think twice about what you eat and drink.
Whether you call it: soda, pop, coke or "soft drinks" ::shiver:: they are very bad for you.
So. I gave them up!
It's been almost a week (not a long time, but still quite an accomplishment for me).

Soda and I have had a love affair for many years. Dr. Pepper is my drink of choice, but all sodas have been welcome in my tummy.
But no more!!
I am through.

Wish me luck in my new endeavor.

Now I'm off to watch Wimbledon with the fam. Happy almost Easter!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Gotta get the fingers going

I'm trying to do my homework but my brain won't settle on one topic.
I need to write this query letter for an article I MIGHT send to the LEO. Right now I'm doubting it will even be long enough. The topic is good, I just don't have enough information.
What else do I have to do?
Read for Greek Tragedy class
Start writing a paper on Aphrodite for the same class
Start writing a paper on Labyrinth for Musicals class
Study for my lab test in Bio

...that should be it.
:(
Here are some other life updates:
I didn't get the STA Internship. I was pretty heartbroken for the first week, but I'm pretty much recovered. I keep thinking about it though, and how I'm going to do better next year. I should start writing down my ideas.

Poop, I just remembered another assignment I had. I hate this time of year.
I would feel better if the sun came back out.

I'm off to finish my assignments.

And that's what she said.
Natalie

Friday, February 27, 2009

I gots me two blawgs.

Yeah...I have another one. It's for class, but I really like it.
Go read it!

http://natfishblog.wordpress.com/

Love ya'll. I'm on Spring Break. I haven't a care in the world.


Art show went REALLY well today. Happy happy happy.

And that's what she said,
Natalie

Monday, February 23, 2009

I'm fat and sassy

Ok, I'm not fat. I am sassy.
...I'm kind of on my way to fat. I'm not even kidding. It's gross. I've never been this pudgy in my life. I haven't weighed myself yet out of pure fear.
I'm used to floating between 100 and 110 pounds...I need to make sure I don't exceed 110. I'm short, so any amount of weight I put on is immediately obvious.
I think I've been eating too many fried foods. And I stopped doing yoga :( Siiiigh.
I really hate the gym at school. It's not welcoming, so I feel like I can't just start going. I might buy a jump rope. That would be fun and easy. And I could do it for hours!

This week is shaping up to be better than last week. I have a midterm on Wednesday in my favorite class, and I think that's all I have to worry about school wise.
And then at the end of the week it's Spring Break!
It begins with the Kentucky Girlhood Project exhibit in Murray featuring yours truly. My very first art show!! Yaaay!



Now I'm off to read Garrison Keillor's book 'Love Me.'

And that's what she said,
Natalie

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

I think I might cry. This week has been a true test on my emotions, and I'm sick of it.
This STA video is giving me so much grief, and the possibility of me even getting the internship is hardcore dwindling. When I logged on this morning I FINALLY had four stars. Four whole stars out of five. I was ecstatic! Over the moon!
Then when I looked just a moment ago, I had gotten one more rating and was back down to three and a half stars. How? Why?
I want this internship more than anything in the world, and I tried to be as genuine as I could in the video. I think I'm more than qualified for the job...I don't know. I'm just really upset.
It's hard for me to accept that after waiting my whole life for this chance I might not get it. I'm trying to prepare myself for the letdown. It's not easy.

Do you ever immediately regret something you say? Or just get the feeling that it didn't come out right or it might sound bad to someone else? That has been happening to me a LOT lately. I'm not trying to be mean to anyone or say anything hurtful, but every time words manage to escape from my mouth they just sound wrong. Or obnoxious. I hate sounding obnoxious.
I've also been just plain ol' complainy lately, and I know I'm getting on my friends' nerves. I've decided I'll just avoid everyone for the night and maybe they'll like me again tomorrow.

God, I'm so self-absorbed/deprecating tonight. And I hate that too! This isn't a livejournal! Yeesh. I apologize to anyone who might be reading this..it's awful. Drivel. Poop.

There is no where to cry in a dorm unless you want at least three people to witness your breakdown. Argh. Dorms need cry rooms.

I apologize for this entry. I'll be happy next time.

And that's what she said,
Natalie.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I Usually Have a Lot of Words

But right now there are too many words in my life.
Books, taking notes, emails...blah blah blah.

I think I'll go draw a picture.

If you haven't yet, go watch my video, darnit.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQOMp7P1Bxo

Friday, January 30, 2009

Snow in January...who knew!

Oh Louisville. Any form of slightly intense weather cripples you.
I've been out of school since Tuesday(it is now Friday) and I think I'm getting cabin fever. I want to get back to class and start learning again! College isn't supposed to get canceled...I could WALK to it. Sigh.

On the bright side, I finished my STA Internship video application and am now waiting for it to be posted. It IS on YouTube, in case you want to watch it, comment on it and rate it. Please.
Watch it here!
I'm so excited about this video, and about this internship. I just keep thinking positively and envisioning myself getting it. So it'll be even worse if I don't get it! I kid. I'm crazy confident about this.
I have a few backups though, no worries.

I don't know what to do with myself today. I could put away laundry...I could go sledding...I could do dishes...I could go sledding...hmm.

I think I have an idea.
I hope you all stay warm and safe!

And that's what she said.
Natalie

Sunday, January 11, 2009

I'm a real artist now!

My art video got accepted into the KY Girlhood Project art exhibit!!
A piece of my art is going to be in a real show, in a real gallery, surrounded by other real artists!
I just can't believe it. I'm so incredibly happy about this, and really proud of myself. I never thought I could accomplish something like this in the art world.

Here is the video.



One video down, one to go!


Oh, and I've finally thought of a clever sign off. I can't believe it didn't occur to me before.

And that's what she said,
Natalie.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Here I am, sitting on my wonderful twin bed.

Ohhhh Bellarmine. How I've missed you. It's been so wonderful settling back into everything here.
I have an interesting new perspective on life that I'm trying out.
It goes a little something like this: Not everyone is out to get/ruin you. Your friends actually care about and love you, and you should appreciate them. Oh, also, have fun and quit stressin'.

I think I have in rose colored contacts. And I LOVE it! I've been soooo happy the past few days, and I really don't want it to go away.
I can just feel my cynicism melting away. Which is pretty silly.

My buddy Jon and I are watching House. Hooray! :)

Oh sigh. I love everything.
Weird.


Bye bye!

Friday, January 2, 2009

Almost back

I've been getting ready to go back to Louisville today. What a daunting task. I leave early on Sunday, so I don't have much time left.

Surprisingly, this has been one of my most enjoyable breaks since beginning college nearly 3 years ago. (Eek! Three years?!) It's probably because I really, really needed it. Finals were a living hell for me. Gosh, I can't wait till the end of this upcoming semester! :P

Aside from packing, I've been consumed by one thing, and one thing only. I mentioned it in my last post. I am a girl obsessed.
I keep watching my video and making little tweaks to it. I don't think this first one will be the one I send in, though. I need time to make sure my video is perfect, and my application even more so.

PS-Making videos in iMovie is sooooo fun! It was surprisingly easy too. It only took me about 45 minutes to fully understand. I bet there are nifty tricks I still don't know about too. Maybe I'll do some reading on it.

Speaking of iThings, I need to take my Mac into the shop when I get back to Louisville. Poor thing has needed a new casing since I bought it used this summer. He will look so shiny and new when he is fixed.

Speaking of shiny and new, I got a haircut a few days ago. I quite like it. Penny, my stylist, is so silly, and I love her.

Anyhoo, I guess I'll go now.

Till Next Time,
Natalie.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Slow down, you crazy child. You're so ambitious for a juvenile.

Happy 2009!

I decided on my resolutions a little after midnight, since we went around in a circle and told them.
1) To secure a kick-ass internship,
2) To lead a more eco-friendly life.

:)

I have plenty more self changes I'm making, but those are private, thankyouverymuch.

I was told today that my aspirations are awesome, haha. I was very flattered. I said in return, "I figure if all my aspirations are awesome, I have to achieve at least one, and I won't be disappointed!"
I think it works.

I'm currently working on a video application for an STA Travel Internship. It's basically the internship I've been looking for my entire life. They pay for me to travel around the world, and I get to make video blogs and regular blogs and take pictures and they put them on their website. So I'm in the process of creating several videos and then picking my favorite.
It's pretty boss.
Yeah. Boss. I said it.

If I don't get the internship I'll cry a lot and then spend an entire year making another video for next year, haha.
It pretty much solves every problem I've ever had with traveling. And I only have one problem: money.
I hate to complain about something like that, but I'm already in serious debt due to loans for school and such, so it actually is a real problem for me.

But blah, blah, blah I'M SO EXCITED! :)


In other news, 2008 can suck it, and it better be jealous of how awesome 2009 is going to be.

Personification is my buddy.


...see what I did there? Hehe.

Alright, it's late and I'm turning into a nutjob.

Love.

Till Next Time,
Natalie.