I gots me two blawgs.

Yeah...I have another one. It's for class, but I really like it.
Go read it!

http://natfishblog.wordpress.com/

Love ya'll. I'm on Spring Break. I haven't a care in the world.


Art show went REALLY well today. Happy happy happy.

And that's what she said,
Natalie

I'm fat and sassy

Ok, I'm not fat. I am sassy.
...I'm kind of on my way to fat. I'm not even kidding. It's gross. I've never been this pudgy in my life. I haven't weighed myself yet out of pure fear.
I'm used to floating between 100 and 110 pounds...I need to make sure I don't exceed 110. I'm short, so any amount of weight I put on is immediately obvious.
I think I've been eating too many fried foods. And I stopped doing yoga :( Siiiigh.
I really hate the gym at school. It's not welcoming, so I feel like I can't just start going. I might buy a jump rope. That would be fun and easy. And I could do it for hours!

This week is shaping up to be better than last week. I have a midterm on Wednesday in my favorite class, and I think that's all I have to worry about school wise.
And then at the end of the week it's Spring Break!
It begins with the Kentucky Girlhood Project exhibit in Murray featuring yours truly. My very first art show!! Yaaay!



Now I'm off to read Garrison Keillor's book 'Love Me.'

And that's what she said,
Natalie

I think I might cry. This week has been a true test on my emotions, and I'm sick of it.
This STA video is giving me so much grief, and the possibility of me even getting the internship is hardcore dwindling. When I logged on this morning I FINALLY had four stars. Four whole stars out of five. I was ecstatic! Over the moon!
Then when I looked just a moment ago, I had gotten one more rating and was back down to three and a half stars. How? Why?
I want this internship more than anything in the world, and I tried to be as genuine as I could in the video. I think I'm more than qualified for the job...I don't know. I'm just really upset.
It's hard for me to accept that after waiting my whole life for this chance I might not get it. I'm trying to prepare myself for the letdown. It's not easy.

Do you ever immediately regret something you say? Or just get the feeling that it didn't come out right or it might sound bad to someone else? That has been happening to me a LOT lately. I'm not trying to be mean to anyone or say anything hurtful, but every time words manage to escape from my mouth they just sound wrong. Or obnoxious. I hate sounding obnoxious.
I've also been just plain ol' complainy lately, and I know I'm getting on my friends' nerves. I've decided I'll just avoid everyone for the night and maybe they'll like me again tomorrow.

God, I'm so self-absorbed/deprecating tonight. And I hate that too! This isn't a livejournal! Yeesh. I apologize to anyone who might be reading this..it's awful. Drivel. Poop.

There is no where to cry in a dorm unless you want at least three people to witness your breakdown. Argh. Dorms need cry rooms.

I apologize for this entry. I'll be happy next time.

And that's what she said,
Natalie.

I Usually Have a Lot of Words

But right now there are too many words in my life.
Books, taking notes, emails...blah blah blah.

I think I'll go draw a picture.

If you haven't yet, go watch my video, darnit.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQOMp7P1Bxo